Cravings and Emotions

People have asked me a lot about what I am craving, and up until these past couple weeks I didnt really have anything intersting to tell them. Sure, I want Pasta like ALLLLLL the time, and sure, I am really into anything fresh and crunchy, like pickles and carrots, and I LOVE anything salty. But none of these things are weird. There were no pickle and ice cream cravings, in fact that grosses me out, and no off the wall things that I have never eaten before, WELL that all changed last week at lunch at work. I sat down to a nice turkey sammy, which I hardly touched because I was so into my Hot Cheetos and Chocolate Pudding. Yes you heard that right. Amazing stuff, huh? I doubt i will ever do that again, at least not together, but it was interesting that I chose that and I really thought it would be the weirdest thing that I would eat this entire pregnancy. That is until tonight. Chris is at work, and I am bored out of my mind. There really isnt anything to eat in the apartment, except that trusty jar of pickles. So I grabbed one, and after much thought decided to have a spoonful of peanut butter with it. There you go, the worst ever pregnancy craving.

On a side note, everything else has been going well lately, physically at least. I feel great, I look better now that my face is done being a jerk and breaking out. The only thing that is bothersome is I am drained. Emotionally. I am so homesick that even typing the word makes me want to cry. Which is another thing. I am soooo weepy. I cry at home, at work, at the grocery store.. while doing homework, while taking a shower, and even while driving to work. I thank god every day for waterproof mascara. I long for my "lunch box days" when I spent the holidays around grandmas, grandpas, aunts, uncles and cousins. When life was more simple and happy and not at all stressful. I miss the snow most of all. I HATE christmas in the desert. I cant get into the holiday mood no matter how hard I try lately. But I just have to remember that this too shall pass, I will get through it, and hopefully there are no casualties along the way. And someday soon I will get to spend the holidays with our little bean. :)